xsikofacex

xsikofacex @ 2007-02-11T08:52:00

2007-02-11T13:52:28Z

yesterday was one of the best days i've had in a long time. i didn't want it to end, i didn't want to go home. i didn't have to get off of that couch we layed on for about 4 and a half hours....
but, all great things come to and end...
and now i get to go shopping for his birthday and valentines day. bleh. i freaking despise valentines day-really, i do. if i didn't have a guilty conscious i wouldn't worry about it. but, if he gets me something and i don't get him something...that...wouldn't be good on my part. so, yeah.

stressful day it's gonna be.

supposed to have a snow storm tuesday. no school hopefully tuesday and wednesday. hopefulyyyy.

yeah...i miss yesterday...

xsikofacex @ 2007-02-06T16:37:00

2007-02-06T21:51:34Z

today was good i guess. took a test in science. hope i did good, at least a B.
hopefully.
i studied...so, yeah.

math was a test too. wtf. is it Test Tuesday or something? i thought i did good, but, last time i thought i did good on a math test i failed. so, whatever.

photography was. eh.

4th period was interesting. got to list stereotypes. i drew the stereotype "all americans are fat" (which is somewhat a fact x] ). everyone really liked the drawing. har.

i'm...hungry..but i refuse to eat. i can't...i just can't eat and not feel guilty-except at lunch (no, i don't just eat a salad. go fuck yourself). lunch, i don't feel guilty.
when i eat with a lot of people, i never feel guilty.
but when it's just me eating, i feel like "you know, you didn't have to eat that? you would of servived. pussy"

and lately i've had a new attitude towards people. pretty much like i don't want to waste my time with people who think they're hot shit, i don't have time for liars, i don't care what people think-if they think i'm immature-if they think i'm a little anorexic girl-if they think i'm not cool enough-if they get all bent out of shape because i'm not wearing what everyone else is wearing. i don't care. go fuck yourselves. and if they don't like me-oh well, i probably never liked them anyways.

i am a happy person, i just...don't care about people anymore. and what they think. my opinions on life are my opinions-and guess what? i didn't asked how you felt about that, so, don't give me your opinion on what you think of mine unless i ask and i won't give you mine unless you asked me.

xsikofacex @ 2007-02-01T18:19:00

2007-02-01T23:32:23Z

so, i thought i did good on this english quiz...B material perhaps-high B. get it back...a freaking C-. not cool, man. and the significant other got a freaking A. showing me up and shit. not cool. so, i'm studying like really hard for this next quiz, like...the teacher didn't even say when the quiz was yet, but...this wouldn't be the first time this semester (it's only been 2 freaking weeks, man!) that i thought i passed something and got it back as a failing grade. i just really want to do good for once. and not suck so much...that'd be nice.

ew...valentines day is coming up. it's cheesy. i don't want to celebrate it with my boyfriend, like...at all. i just think it's a stupid halmark holiday so stores can sell their cards and chocolate. and it's just stressing me out i guess...for many reasons.

i'm reading a pretty good book called "go ask alice" by anonymous. i can relate to the girl at sometimes-except for the LSD-drug-sex-drug-selling-life xD but...at some parts i can relate...

yeah...besides the grades and the anxiety feeling i'm getting which probably won't past untill the 22nd, my life has been pretty good. thanksss.

later.

xsikofacex @ 2007-01-30T19:56:00

2007-01-31T01:06:10Z

so, today was like...very interesting. started it out with Cristin and i fighting with Katie. har. it was funny. Cristin and i tried so hard not to laugh at this one point. butttt, after about 3 minutes, Cristin was smart and walked out of the batheroom (where this little scene was located at) leaving me with Katie. i was like "fuck this shit" grabbed my stuff and left with a furious look on my face as katie tried to get me to stay with those stupid words "COME BACK HERE, I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU"

yeah, okay. sorry...i'll come back since you said that...evs....why do people say that? it obviously doesn't work.

so, i went into homeroom, sat ontop of my desk and stared at the wall (for some reason, i never actually seem to sit in the seat) with nothing but frustration inside of me.

but...it was amazing. as soon as he walked into homeroom, i felt like it was all drained from me. i felt relaxed and happy. it's like he knew something was up too because he gave me a hug...man, i know i say this all the time
but
God
has
blessed
me.

the rest of the day was nothing but Cristin and i laughing at this morning's little scene (if you want to know what was so funny, ask) and our new saying now is "IS THIS SOME KIND OF COMPETITION TO YOU????".

and then 4th pd, i didn't say a word to Katie and couldn't even look her in the eyes knowing that if i did i'd want to start a fight. so, i was smart and just kept talking to ryan and being happy.

yeahhhh. american idol and house. fo sho.

xsikofacex @ 2007-01-27T09:40:00

2007-01-27T14:41:17Z

so, something tells me that next week at school is going to be drama between some good friends. i'm not one for drama, i hate it. it annoys me. i've gone so long without it. i was drama-free for the past 3 years. and now. ew. whatever. maybe this is for the better in a way.

hopefully tonight i go to the movies. i realllyyyy hope my mom doesn't bail on the last second like she did last night. that was lame.

so, i'll probably watch Gridiron Gang to cure my boredom, clean the house a little.

i hope my shoes come in today.

yeah, this journal was out of boredom, i don't expect anyone to comment.

xsikofacex @ 2007-01-23T18:15:00

2007-01-23T23:21:10Z

my day...was...long. too long. i really miss last semester. the day seemed to always go by too fast. and now it just drags on. never have i looked up at the clock before as much as i do now.

4th period...i pray to god my jealousy goes away.

i don't feel like typing about it. if you actually care, ask me about it and i'll tell you.

Q: Do you wish on stars? no.

Q: Does it work? x.

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them of? no shoe laces.

Q: When did you last cry? last night.

Q: Do you like your handwriting? never did.

Q: Are you a friendly person? always try to be.

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night? mine.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing? white.

Q: Do you have any pets? 6.

Q: What is the color of your bedsheets? black.

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night? in bed (i was fed up with the day. i usually never go to bed that early), tossing around thinking of everything that once made me happy that now was just bringing me frustration.

Q: Last person you talked to: katie.

Q: When is the last time you saw your dad? today.

Q: Look to your left: okay...

Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep? yeah.

Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder? no.

Q: Song that makes you cry? i don't really have one anymore. but, "creep" by radiohead is really getting to me now, more than usual.

Q: Are you a normally happy person? on the outside.

Q: Is your self-esteem low? not normally.

Q: What color are your eyes? hazel.

Q: Long or Short Hair: long, but, more of a medium length.

Q: Current Music? "zombie" the cranberries

xsikofacex @ 2007-01-22T19:07:00

2007-01-23T00:12:56Z

today is my birthday. doesn't feel like it. woke up still angry with my mom. went to school. beggining of the second semester. the new classes are alright....i'm a little scared of 4th period...very scared actually.

still faught with my mom.

ate scallops, bacon ,and ice cream. hope i get sick and throw it up.

i just want tomorrow to be better....i just want to be happy again.

all of a sudden, i don't feel as pretty as i usually feel (don't say "BUT, YOU LOOK AMAZING. SHUT UP"). i remember last year, i'd have all this confidence (not cocky, but, it was confidence that i didn't look in the mirror and see anything i wanted to fix) and i don't know where it went to. and now, i just feel...like i'm not being noticed. my sister is starting to get skinnier than me (naturally), she seems to be getting more beautiful every day. when we get ready in the morning in the batheroom infront of the huge mirror, i just glance at her with envy.

and today he didn't seem to interested in me. maybe it's just my jealousy....

today...sucked. and ever since around 6 ish, i've been wanting to just curl up in a ball and cry.

seems like depression was only on a vacation.

xsikofacex @ 2007-01-18T20:47:00

2007-01-19T01:53:43Z

so, wow...when i'm in my own little world, thinking about him
i like
couldn't be happier. i'm like, in such a happy state of mind.

then, i go down to talk and hang out with my parents.
and i snap.
we're yelling at eachother and i seem to insist on getting the last word and i get all pissed off.

and it's because
again.
when i'm not with him and i think about him too much, i turn into someone who isn't happy unless i'm around him.
when i'm just alone, laying in bed, watching tv. i'm all...very content just thinking about him. then once someone walks into the room to ask me something, i give them attitude because it's not him and i want them to leave and not see their face the rest of the night.

and even to friends. i'm like. so apathetic towards them sometimes.
at times i'll be all "I LOVE YOUU <3333" and then other times i'll be all "oh, had a bad day? that's unfurtunate" and not say another word.

but...i don't think it's all him that is the problem. it's my...mental/physical health that also has something to do with it. and that's starting to really fuck me up.

yeah.

200. My name is: sweet.
199. I was born on: january 22nd.
198. I am a: girl.
197. My hair color is: Brown with blonde highlights.
196. My eye color is: hazel.
195. My shoe size is: 8.
194. My ring size is: not sure.
193. My pant size is: 2-3.
192. My height is: 5'4''.
191. I am allergic to: nothing.
190. I live in: amish country.
189. The last book I read: something about ghosts.
188. My bed is: small.
187. One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex: they're guys.
186. I am glad I'm my sex because: i like guys.
184. My Best friends are: talaryankatie.
181. Three things I can never resist are: chocolate, feeling guilty, laughing.
179. My favorite pajamas are: what pajamas?
178. A perfect kiss is: with a person you care about.
177. The last three CDs (records) I bought are: not sure.
176. Last song that made me cry was: probably something by silverstein.
173. I could not live without: my friends.
172. My most treasured possession is: idon'tknow.
170. What did you do last night: went to a wrestling meet.
169. The funniest quote I know is: "shun the non-believer-shunnnnnnnnnnnn" "charlieeeee, come to candy mountain, charrlieeeee" i don't care what anyone says, that makes me laugh.
168. The quote that sums it all up for me is: fdljhlhjd.
167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): burns and then tans.

-I Do/Do Not Believe in-
142. Love at first sight? psh.do not.
141. Luck? i do/do not.
140. Fate? i do.
139. God? i do.
138. Aliens? haha.
137. Heaven? i do.
136. Hell? i do.
135. Ghosts? i do.
134. Horoscopes? i read them for fun, but, i do not believe them.
133. Soul Mates? sure.

-Which is Better?-
129. Hugs or Kisses: depends. but, mostly hugs.
128. Drunk or High: neither.
127. Phone or Online: depends.
126. Girls with/without Hats: without.
125. Blondes or Brunettes: depends.
122. Guys with/without Facial Hair: without. thanks. but, it depends. but, mostly, no.
120. Night or Day: depends. but, night.
119. Oranges or Apples: orange.
118. Curly or Straight hair: depends.

-Here's What I Think About... -
116. Abortion? is murder.
115. Backstabbers? are gay.
110. School? can be cool.
109. Americaaaaaa? cool.
107. Love? yay.
106. Friends before Love: but, you need to love your friends >_>

Last time I...-
105. Took a Shower: today.
104. Talked on the phone: today.
102. Hugged someone: today.
101. Seen someone I haven't seen in a while: today.
100. Drove: never.
095. Grew: last year?

091. I always ask: "what's up?"
090. The ditziest person I know: my sister.
089. The one person who makes me laugh the most is: ryan.
088. Which celebrity or famous person are you in love with? none at the moment.
087. One thing I'm pissed about right now is: grr.
083. The last movie I saw in the theater was: stranger than fiction. been a while since i've gone to the movies <_<.
082. The thing I don't understand is: why i'm the way i am.
080. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received is: well, i couldn't answer it. ever.
079. The one thing I love about the opposite sex is: they have better personalities than girls.
078. This weak I am: a huge emotional rollercoaster that's going to make me puke.
076. This Summer vacation I am: GOING TO WATCH SOME INUYASHA. rofl, tala <3
075. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my house and the people in it...the memories.
073. Tomorrow: i get to sleep in.
071. Next Summer: hopefully something productive.
070. Next Week: is the 2nd semester, my birthday, and hopefully it won't suck as much as expected.
067. People call me: by my name.
066. The person who I talk to the most on the phone is: katie.
065. The person I had the longest on-going relationship with was: ryan x]
064. The person I have been friends with the longest? katie.
062. The person who knows the most about me is: tala.
061. The person who can read me the best is: not sure...but, ryan catches on pretty fast.
060. The most difficult thing to do is? the right thing.
059. I have/have not gotten a speeding ticket? have not.
058. I have the following siblings: 2 sisters and 3 brothers.
057. My favorite people are: my friends and family.
056. My zodiac sign is: aquarius.
055. The first person I thought/think I was/am in love with was/is: eqf8e.
053. The one person who can't hide things from me: haha, i'm not stopping them.
052. The person I find myself spilling my guts to is: tala.
051. Right now I am talking to: no one.
048. I have a job at: x.
047. I have these pets: dog, cat, turtle, about 4 rabbits.
045. The worst sound in the world is? not sure.
044. The person that makes me cry the most is: har.
043. The best shoulder to cry on is: i've never cried on a shoulder before. i wouldn't know.
041. I almost died when: x.
039. My boy/girlfriend is: cooler than yours.
034. My favorite state? maryland i guess. but, i've never been to all of them. so, yeah.
033. My favorite piece of clothing is: this shirt.
032. My favorite sport to play is: kick boxing (but that's not exactly a sport) and hockey.
029. What I am wearing right now is: black sweats, pink tank top, socks.
028. The school I went to was: full of obnoxious snobs.
027. The last person I pissed off was: my mom i think.
026. My worst drinking experience was: none.
024. The last movie I watched was: napolean dynomite.
022. The all-time best movie is: talladega nights. anchorman. gridiron gang. remember the titans. and so many more.
021. The all-time best thing in the world is: love.
019. The most annoying thing ever is/are: rude people.
017. I lose all respect for people who: are rude.
016. The movies I have cried at are: i don't know.
011. The worst pain I was ever in was: can't remember. when that fat kid fell on my arm? but...i guess it didn't hurt that bad because i just laughed at it. i have a high tolerance for pain, so, nothing hurts me too bad unless i break a bone or i get cut really deep.
010. My favorite phrases: supposively i say "no, i'm good" a lot.
009. My room is full of: shit.
008. My favorite celebrity is: x.
007. My favorite cliche is: x.
006. My downfall is: there are a lot.
005. My weakness is: chocolate.
004. What turns me on is: hah.
003. I want this to end because: i'm getting lazy with my answers.
002. I filled out 200 questions because: i was bored.
001. Where is this question: ...

xsikofacex @ 2006-12-29T22:36:00

2006-12-30T03:43:34Z

so, i've noticed that without them i'm more arrogant and apathetic of other peoples feelings. i'm back to the way i was before them. who new a week could do that to me. i just miss them so freaking much and the fact that they aren't here to put that stupid smile on my face just makes me so angry. i know, i should be happy just to even have that person...but, it's easy to get selfish and want more. it's so easy. i always tell myself, "LOOK, you have them. you actually have them when other people don't." and it's like...whatever. i don't know. i could just care less about everyone else right now. i have to watch what i say too because i realized that i'm starting to make people angry. i'm letting my thoughts slip out. i'll think something rude and since i'm so apathetic it just comes out...i'm also starting to feel how i used to feel. i feel unaprecciated. and it makes me question myself. and makes me paranoid in a way. like, why are they better than me? what did i do? and i'm also easily jealous so that factor never helped.

and i have so much to vent about that i feel like i couldn't talk to anyone about it because no one could really understand. all they would say anyways would be IT COULD BE SO MUCH WORSE.

don't fucking tell me that. i know that for a fact.

but, guess what, i'm not dealing with how worse it could be, i'm dealing with how it is now. dear god i hate hearing that from every person i talk to...

With the lights out it’s a little less dangerous
Even with a stranger never gets painless
Don’t be afraid (afraid, afraid)

Every time I think I’m gonna change it (think I'm gonna change it, think I'm gonna change it)
It’s driving me (driving me) insane (insane)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

Do you live, do you die, do you bleed
For the fantasy
In your mind, through your eyes, do you see
It’s the fantasy

Maybe tonight we can forget about it all
It could be just like heaven
I am a machine
No longer living, just a shell of what I dreamed
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

Do you live, do you die, do you bleed
For the fantasy
In your mind, through your eyes, do you see
It’s the fantasy

Say it, say it, say that you believe
Say it, say it to me

30 seconds to mars "the fantasy"

xsikofacex @ 2006-12-28T22:37:00

2006-12-29T03:40:27Z

wow, i really miss him. like...really badly. and i could make it easier for myself and call him. but, i'm stupid. and i'd rather just sit here all day, bored out of my fucking mind and waste a day...and sit there watching Two-A-Days all freaking day long...is agony really that close of a friend to me?

never has a break sucked so much.
i'm so looking forward to school on tuesday.

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

1. Do you like anyone?: yes.
2. Do they know it? yes.
3. Simple or complicated? a little bit of both.

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U
4. Had sex: nope.
5. Bought something: yes.
6. Gotten sick?: yes. cold. cough sniff groan.
7. Been hugged?: yes.
8. Felt stupid?: yes.
9. Talked to an ex: no.
10. Missed someone: omfg, terribly.
11. Failed a test: i don't think so.
12. Got your hair cut: it was either the beginning of this month or the end of the last month...
13. Danced: yes.

U N I Q U E
16. Nervous habits?: when i get anxious i bite my nails.
17. Are you double jointed?: nope.
18. Can you roll your tongue?: nah.
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: yes.
20. Can you cross your eyes? yes.
21. Do you make your bed daily? no.
22. Do you think you are unique?: sometimes.

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R
23. Said "I Love you": yeah.
24. Given money to a homeless person: no.
25. Smoked?: ew. no.
26. Waited all night for a phone call? no.
27. Snuck out? yes. but, it was at a friends house.
28. Sat and looked at the stars? yeah.
29. Do you swear/curse?: m'hm.
30. Do you ever spit?: haha, yeah. my mom says i'm very "lady like".
31. You cook your own food? microwave please.
32. You do your own chores? yes.
33. You like beef jerky? sure.
35. You're happy with your life? yes.
36. You own a dog? yes.
37. You spend your money wisely? i try. but, i end up saying "screw it" and spend it all anyways.
38. Do you like to swim? yeah.
39. When you get bored do you call a friend? nah. there is like, only two people i talk to on the phone. i'm more into talking face to face or on the computer or something....the phone is awkward.

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S
41. Flowers or angels? angels are cool.
42. Gray or black?: black.
43. Color or black and white photos? black and white.
44. Lust or love?: love.
45. Sunrise or sunset? sunset.
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: uuuuuummmm....m&ms.
48. Staying up late or waking up early? staying up late.
49. Being hot or cold? hot.
50. Winter or Fall? that's hard...it depends if it's a snowless winter, if it's a snowless winter, then i'd take the fall.
51. Left or right?: right.
52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends? 2 best friends.
53. Sunshine or rain? depends.

HAVE YOU EVER?
Slept in a bed of the opposite sex? nope.
Hooked up in the woods? no.
Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself? yes. but, it was wine cooler and you could drink 5 bottles of them and you could probably still walk straight...so...that doesn't count.
Hooked up in your bedroom? no.
Stolen money from a friend?: nah.
Slept naked? nope.
Been in a fist fight? yeah.
Had a crush on a teacher? nope. there are no decent looking guy teachers that'd i've ever seen.
Been on an airplane? nope.
Slept all day? close to it.
Missed someone so much it hurt? yesssss.
Been lonely? yup.
Cheated in a game? yes.
Been to the ER? yeah.
Been in a car accident? yes.
Had detention? yes.
Missed your first love? yes.
Cried yourself to sleep? yes.
Sung in the shower? used to a lot, but, for some reason i don't now....probably from watching elf...afraid Will Farrell is going to start singing along or something.
Kissed a complete stranger? no.
Laughed so hard you cried? yeah.
Cheated on a bf/gf? no.
Regretted hurting someone? yeah.
Regretted loving someone? caring about them, yeah...but, you learn from that.
Been SUPER happy? yes.

xsikofacex @ 2006-12-02T20:50:00

2006-12-03T00:50:06Z

so, last night i went to the mall with Ryan and his family. first we ate...except Ryan who had to starve himself for wrestling. and then Ryan and i went to Sears, Boscovs, and the Bonton to find the ugliest shoes, to sit down on a couch and watch 50 different tvs at the same time, try on some pretty fugly hats, sit on some more couches that were for display only, and walk up to a watch salesman and ask if he had the time. it was pretty fun. i have way too much fun with that kid.

and today i got my hair did and went to the winterfest. and now i'm waiting till SNL comes on...and it's 7:45. this is the LONGEST night ever. i swear.

tomorrow i'm gonna go see Deck the Halls with my aunt and stuff. hopefully Alaina makes it. i miss that sibling of mine.

missing Tala. very much. hope you're having a good time with Kris and Liz! not sure if anyone else is with you...but, yeah :]

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?:
katie, brittani, or ryan....or tala, but, she doesn't call without warning so i know it won't be her x] .

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?:
kind of.

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?:
listener.

5. Do you like to ride horses?:
sure.

6. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?:
no. i did not live a normal childhood-according to ryan.

7. What was your favorite board game as a kid?:
life.

8. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was taken what would you do?
i do not have to worry about that.

9. Are you judgmental?
i try not to be.

10. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
depends how much i care for the person.

11. Are you continuing your education?:
yes.

12. Do you know how to shoot a gun?:
yeah.

13. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grab?:
i'd probably scream at everyone to get the hell out and then grab my animals.

14. How often do you read books?
not as much as i used to, sadly.

15. Do you think more about the past, present or future?:
past&future.

16. What is your favorite children's book?
can't remember.

17. Have you kissed any of your MySpace friends?
no.

18. How tall are you?:
5'4'' or 5'5''

19. Where is your ideal house located?
the one that i WANT? not sure yet.

20. Last person you talked to?:
tala.

21. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?:
yes.

22. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?:
3 years ago.

23. What are your keys on your key chains for?
house.

24. What did you do last night?
was at the winterfest, came home, collapsed on my bed and fell asleep watching america's next top model.

25. Where is your current pain at?
no pain, but, my one toe is starting to tickle for some reason.

26. Do you like mustard?
no.

27. Do you like your mom or dad?
both.

28. How long does it take you in the shower?:
depends.

29. What movie do you want to see right now?
i'm in the mood for some Anchor Man, Evan Almighty looks good, and Happy Feet looks cute :3

30. Do you put lotion on your dog or cats?
...i try not to...

31. What did you do for New Year's?:
babysat my cousins while talking on the phone to katie all night.

32. Do you think The Grudge was scary?:
hell yeah. had me looking over my shoulder everytime i was in a dark room.

33. Do you own a camera phone?:
no.

34. What's the last letter of your middle name?:
first one, e. second one, h.

35. Who did you vote for on American Idol?:
i don't vote for that crap.

36. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?:
8.

37. Do you like care bears?:
no.

38. Do you know how to play poker?:
i used to...

39. Do you wear your seatbelt?
i don't like too, but, i'm smart so i do.

40. What do you wear to sleep?:
i'm usually too tired to put on anything, so, i just take off my pants and my shirt and climb into bed.

NOVEMBER 27TH

2006-11-29T21:03:09Z

pictures i took with katie on monday

^^^^ lmfao, we both look like complete idiots.

i attempted to lay on a the seesaw but commen sense did not kick in untill it teaterd (spelling errors, perhaps) down and i started to slide down the thing. you can see me sort of holding on for dear life, although the fall wouldn't of been anything harmful xD

this is what i look like when i'm hiding from people who might find me on private property...it's an attractive little face if i do say so myself x]

always willing to risk my neck for a picture that ends up not being that great anyways x]

.....

me as a guy

just call me Shane

i'd be a "peeping tom"

"caterpillar..."

"....this shirt smells like tape..."

xsikofacex @ 2006-11-24T19:39:00

2006-11-24T23:39:02Z

ahha, so, i guess everytime i have an entry, i'm gonna do a little survey i find on myspace. why? cause i obviously have nothing better to do.

--
THIS OR THAT

1. Babe or Baby: to be called? neither.
2. Sweetie or Honey: niether.
3. Darling or Dear: just call me by my real name, kthnx.
4. hug or kiss: depends on my mood. mostly hugs.
5. white or black: black.
6. ground or sky: sky.
7. night or day: night.
8. pool or beach: beach.
10. you or me: it depends on who "you" is.
11. silver or gold: silver.
12. left or right: ...right i guess cause i write with my right hand.
13. sunny or rainy: depends if i want to walk my dog or something.
14. hot or cold: depends.
15. lake or river: river.

HAVE YOU EVER

20. been camping: yeah.

21. eaten alligator: no.

22. gotten in a fight: yes.

23. been hunting: no.

24. gone fishing: yeah.

25. held a grudge for more than a week: yes.

26. killed something: yes.

27. had a mud fight: yes.

THIS OR THAT

28. kissing on the bed or kissing in the rain: rain.

29. watching a scary movie or a funny one: funny.

30. holding hands or being held: being held.

31. held at the shoulders or held at the waist: waist.

PRESENTLY

1. is your hair wet: no.
2. is your cell phone right by you: i do not own a cellular.
3. do you miss someone: yes.
5. are you wearing chapstick: no.
7. are you tired: not yet.
8. are you excited: kind of.
9. are you watching tv: yes.
10. are you wearing pajamas: no.

HAVE YOU

1. recently done anything you regret: yes.
2. ever lied: NEVER....i'm human, so, yeah.
3. put gum under a desk: yes.
4. ever kick someone?: m'hm.
5. ever trip over your own feet?: yes.

TODAY

1. have you cursed: yes.
2. have you yelled at someone: raised my voice.
3. have you gotten mad at someone: more so aggrivated.
4. have you cried: my eyes started to water from running into the wind, but, not from emotions.
5. have you called more than 3 people? no.

Q&A

Q 02: where is the last place you went?
A 02: to the bathroom.

Q 03: who is the last person you called?
A 03: katie.

Q 04: who do you like more, your mom or dad?
A 04: x

Q 05: do you have any siblings?
A 05: yes.

Q 06: do you smile often?
A 06: yeah.

Q 07: do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
A 07: i hope.

Q 08: do you wish on stars?
A 08: no.

Q 09: do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
A 09: no.

Q 10: when did you last cry?
A 10: not sure.

Q 11: do you like your handwriting?
A 11: no.

Q 12: are you a friendly person?
A 12: i'd like to think so.

Q 13: who's bed did you sleep in last night?
A 13: mine.

Q 14: what color shirt are you wearing?
A 14: white.

Q 15: do you have any pets?
A 15: yes.

Q 16: what is the color of your bedsheets?
A 16: black.

Q 17: what were you doing at 3pm yesterday
A 17: watching the I Shouldn't Be Alive marathon and wishing i wouldn't of shoved all that food down my throat.

Q 18: i can't wait until...
A 18: december 9th.

Q 19: is tom on your friends list?
A 19: probably. i never had a reason to take him off.

Q 20: look to your right. what's there?
A 20: tv.

Q 22: ever cried yourself to sleep?
A 22: yes.

Q 23: ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
A 23: no.

Q 24: song that makes you cry or really emotional?
A 24: do i have one? yes.

Q 25: are you normally a happy person?
A 25: on the outside, yes.

--

so, watching the Breakfast Club on Comendy Central. love this movie. very bored...wishing it was wednesday already....

katie comes over sunday to take pictures :D i'll put them on here then.

later.

xsikofacex @ 2006-11-20T17:03:00

2006-11-20T21:03:17Z

crappiest i've felt in a really long time. i'm not even sure if i'm upset for the right reasons. like...if i'm upset that he's leaving for a week tomorrow to go to another state (which is gay, cause, it's just a week. it could be much longer...so i don't think that's really it) or that i saw something that is probably not even true cause i looked away too damn quick. or if i just feel like this cause i'm always depressed and little things like that can trigger it so quickly. and i'm thinking that's it....i've been happy for so long, and nothing bad has happened, then i saw something so stupid and JUST like that, it triggered my frustration, depression, anxiety, all of that bull shit at once. he noticed too, i wasn't myself around him at flex, he questioned what was up but as usual
i gave him a fake/weak smile and said i was just tired.
of course he believed me...

well, i've got a lot of coffee in me (which i noticed just now that i only seem to drink when i feel some kind of depression or something)and Kaci is itching for a walk...so, i'll take her on the 45 walk so i can talk to her and no one can here me out there in the middle of no where...

field trip tomorrow...it should be a good day...hopefully...

yeah.
later.

xsikofacex @ 2006-11-17T19:12:00

2006-11-17T23:12:28Z

Cause i'm that lame, i'm doing another one of these. thanks.

-----

How much should you weigh? Just put an X in the boxes thats fits you. This is just a fun quizz.

Do you like:

junk-
[] chips
[] fast food
[] soda
[x] candy
[x] popcorn with butter
[x] pretzels
[x] corn (CORN, WTF? that's not junk. CANDY corn, perhaps?)
[ ] daikon
total:4

fruit-
[x]oranges
[x] strawberries
[x] apples
[] bananas
[] pineapple
[] pears
[] peaches
[x] grapes
[] plums
[x] clementines
[] tangerines
[] raspberries
[] blueberries
[] limes
[] lemons
[] mangos
[] cherries
[] watermelon
[] cantalope
[x] honeydew

total:5

meat-
[x] ham
[x] chicken
[] lamb
[] pork
[x] steak
[x] turkey
[] bologna
[x] fish
[x] deer
[] bird
[] salami
[] pepperoni
[] alligator (who the h

total: 6

dairy-
[x] milk
[] cheese
[] yogurt
[] cream
[x] butter
[x] eggs (...eggs is a dairy product?)

total: 3

desserts-
[x]brownies
[x] ice cream
[x] chocolate
[]sherbet
[x] cake
[x]cup cakes
[x] cookies
[] toffee
[x] caramel
[x] mousse
[x] whipped cream
[x] chocolate covered strawberries
[x] pie
[] creme puffs
[x] Jell-O
[x] chocolate covered pretzels

total: 13

Carbs-
[x] bread
[x] pasta
[x] cereal
[x]bagels
[x] doughnuts

total: 5

overall total: x 3 = 108

Now add up the number of x's and multiply by 3 to get the weight that you should be.
Repost this as i should weigh___ pounds

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that was...gay...i orginally weigh 120-BUT IT'S ALL MUSCLE. HAHA-no.

so, today was a pretty good day...flex with Ryan and Mrs. Stoltzfus was pretty much fun. even though Ryan was making me nervous with his stapler.
never realised how freaking skinny that guy was till today. hollyshit.

xsikofacex @ 2006-11-11T17:04:00

2006-11-11T21:04:05Z

yeah...more than bored.

once again, another stupid survey from a friend's myspace.

LAST PERSON YOU...

1. You hung out with?
Brittani

2. Rode in a car with?
my mom

3. Went to the movies with?
katie

4. Went to the mall with?
mom and sister

5. You talked on the phone to?
tala

6. Made you laugh?
tala i think

7. Kissed?
x

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?

1. Pierce you nose or tongue?
nose, tongue is skanky.

2. Be serious or be funny?
depends on situation

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
never tried skim, so, i guess whole

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
shot

5. Spend time with your parents or enemy??
parents

A N S W E R. T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you like anyone?
yeah

2. Sun or moon?
moon

3. Winter or Autumn?
autumn

4. left or right?
right

5. 10 acquaintances or two best friends?
two best friends

6. Sunny or rainy?
rainy

7. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
vanilla

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What time is it?
4:01

2. First Name?
Janna

3. Where do you wanna live?
where ever i'd be most happy at

4. How many kids do you want?
at the most, 3

5. Do you want to get married?
yeah

6. Do you cook?
barely

7. Current mood?
anxious

. S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
yeah

2. Do you have a Dog?
yeah

3. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
someone

4. Do you believe in ghosts?
yeah

---------------------------------

if i'm lucky, i get to go to the movies tonight with Ryan. knowing my luck, something will come up...

now i need to go get warm.

xsikofacex @ 2006-11-07T17:26:00

2006-11-07T21:26:35Z

thought it was about time for another entry.

today was kind of blah. person who i was looking forward to seeing (and kind of nervous of seeing)all weekend was in school today because they were sick....so, it was a boring day.

BUT, an absolutely beautiful day. it looked like it was gonna snow all day. and everyone was like

EW, TODAY IS SO UGLY.

evs. i took Kaci on a 45 minute walk. usually the walks are only 20 minutes that i take on the road, but, i felt like taking a really long walk on such a calm day like this. i walked down the huge corn field instead, onto this path way, and then through the woods. the atmosphere was so awesome...

now i'm really freaking tired because i made myself sprint as long as i could with Kaci to train myself for track&field that doesn't start till spring xD i know i have a while
but
i have this bad habbit that if i'm gonna be doing something
I HAVE TO BE THE BEST AT IT.
and right now, i'm pretty fast, but not the best on the team-i know this for a fact.
i also asked Mrs. Deery how i would train for the team and she told me to sprint as fast as i can for a short distant, stop and catch me breath, sprint again, and then stop. ect.

i also might do the high jump. i won this track&field thing for the high jump last year in gym...i'll train with Mrs. Deery on it...

yeah, so.

thought i'd ramble.

later.

would you?

2006-11-01T23:41:06Z

i haven't done one of these in forever. so, fill it out for me? x3

so mark it with an X if you would

[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] let me take you out to dinner?
[] let me drive you somewhere
[] cut some rug with me?
[] take a shower with me?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] have a fling with me?
[] let me buy you a drink?
[] take me home for the night?
[] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] give me a piggyback ride?
[] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere
[] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[] lick my cheek?
[] dance with me?
[] let me make you breakfast?
[] let me tickle you?
[] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[] play strip poker with me?
[] say yes if i asked you out?
[] get wasted with me?
[] instant message me?
[] greet me in public?
[] hang out with me?
[] bring me around your friends?

i'm bored and waiting for someone to get on aim.

stolen from a friend on myspace.

1. Cigarettes: are worthless

2. Sex: proud virgin

3. Relationships: wouldn't know

4. Your Last Ex: annoying

5. Power rangers: good times

6. Crack: in the sidewalk

7. Food: yum

8. The President: i'm getting tired of hearing peoples opinions on him.

9. War: can be a big waste of time.

10. Cars: i would love to have my license.

11. Gas Prices: suck.

12. Halloween: Frankie's b-day.

13. Bon Jovi: shot through the heart.

14. Religion: is all i have sometimes.

15. MySpace: kind of pathetic.

16. Worst Fear: dying without ever having someone to love me back.

17. Marriage: yes.

18. Fashion: is amazing.

19. Brunettes: are cooler than you.

20. Redheads: clowns freak me out.

21: Work: i don't want a job-but i need one.

22: Pass the time: music

23. One night stands: never had one

24: Cell Phone: i want a nextel..

25: Pet Peeves: people who are obsessed with sex, drugs, and drinking and who think that anyone who doesn't do that stuff is stupid and do not know how to have fun.

26: Pixie Stix: tasty.

27: Vanilla Ice cream: with chocolate >:333

28: Porta Potties: disease.

29: High school: isn't all it's cracked up to be.

30: Chocolate: frankie.

31: Pajamas: don't where pajamas.

32. Wood: trees.

33. Surfers: got skills.

34. Pictures: are amazing.

35. First true love: a'hem....

36. Hair: hair...

37. Babies: not yet.

38. Corvettes: vroom.

39. Cd: la musica.

40. Men: mrowl.

41. Women: mrowl.

42. Porn: orgasmic.rofl.

43. Jewelry: money.

44. Piercings: si.

45. Oil: spills.

46. I Love You: liar.

47. Football: is fun.

48. Basketball: is gay.

49. Baths: showers.

50. True Love: waiting...

44 truths

2006-10-31T21:32:54Z

stolen from Tala's myspace blog :3

44 TRUTHS

Today Did You--

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like? yes.

2. Realize anything new? yeah.

3. Talk to an ex? no, thank God.

4. Miss someone? yeah.

LAST PERSON WHO--

5. Slept at your house? My family? katie.

6. Saw you cry? the posters on the wall?

7. You went to the movies with? katie.

8. Went to the mall with you? ashtyn and mom.

9. You said "I love you" to and meant it? tala.

10. Who made you laugh? hmmm...Brittani...i think.

11. Said they loved you? probably katie.

12. Called you in the middle of the night? no one.

13. Do you have a crush on someone? m'hm.

JUST PLAIN QUESTIONS--

15. Best feeling in the world? being with someone who you care about and just having a good time with them. and "good time" does not mean making out, i mean just laughing and talking with eachother.

16. Favorite location? depends who i'm with-really.

17. piercing/tattoos? 4.

18. What are you most scared of right now? Heh. Nothing I want to talk about.

19. Where do you want to get married? never thought about it-i'm more worried about who i'd be marrying.

20. Who do you really hate? i don't hate anyone. i just strongly dislike.

21. Does anyone really hate you? i wouldn't know.

22. Do you like being around people? i'm more of a one-on-one kind of person. but then, it depends on the group of people and if i'm in the mood.

23. Have you ever cried? yeah.

24. Are you lonely right now? in a way-yeah.

25. Song stuck in your head right now? "baby blue" the early november

26. Been on radio/TV? no.

27. Ever liked someone, but you think they never noticed you? yup.

28. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? no.

29. How many beds did you lay in yesterday? one.

30. What color shirt are you wearing? black with dark blue stripes.

31. Name three things that you do every day? brush my teeth, take a shower, day dream, listen to music, talk, pray, blah, blah, blah.

32. How much cash do you have on you right now? not with me, but, about 5 dollars in change in my room.

35. Who got you to join myspace? myself.

36. What did you have for dinner last night? didn't eat dinner.

39. What web site do you visit the most? myspace and dA

40. Do you have plants in your room? yeah.

41. Does anything hurt on your body right now? something always does.

42. Where was your last cab ride? x

43. What's your favorite starbucks drink? forgot what it was called...but it had whipped cream on it-it was so freaking good.

44. Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex? rofllmfao, they can have him.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANKIE IERO

raking leaves at 7 at night

2006-10-26T01:14:25Z

so, for LCBC tonight, we went to this guys house to rake leaves. i mean, it was mad crazy. there were so many freaking leaves for not that big of a yard-it was smaller than mine. but, the leaves like...yeah...70 some bags of leaves got filled. Jon said we're probably going back again cause there were still some leaves on the trees that haven't fallen off yet. i'm down with that.

we raked leaves in the darkness with a couple lights on. rofl, i almost walked into a tree branch, BUT LUCKILY, I DOGGED IT AND RYAN AND I BANGED HEADS. it was a lose-lose situation. har.

so...tonight...was just amazing. i didn't want it to end. but, all great things must come to an end as they say.

all i can say is that all the pain i've been through has been worth it-even if this happiness might end some day or we move on with our lives, all i know is that for right now, i'm actually happy. TRUE happiness guys. it isn't goofy happiness or the fake happiness you put out there when you don't want people to worry about you. it's the real thing. and i feel great about everything. i almost forgot what this feeling felt like.

but, anyways. school in the morning. got to run.

<3

October 21st...

2006-10-22T03:54:24Z

October 21st, 2005, i lost my dog, Mandy-although she was more of a sister to me. a year ago from today was complete hell for me. it was the day we were supposed to bring her home, but instead, she had to be put down. in a way, i was emotionally prepared for that day for about 2 or 3 years-so i did not take it as hard as expected. but i still miss her every day and i miss her more than anything. never has a rainy day looked so bad in my eyes. never have i longed to see the sun like that before.

but, today was very different from last year. the longing of wanting someone that i cared for to hold me finally came true. i laughed and had a good time-besides almost blacking out and having to pee like mad crazy. it was a very relieving night. one part of me if happy it is over with-another is wanting to go back a couple hours ago and just stay in that moment forever.

my back is killing me and i'm tired now-so sleep is the only thing i really want right now.

Katie and Tala, you both are in my prayers.

R.I.P. Mandy. you are missed every day.

xsikofacex @ 2006-10-15T21:46:00

2006-10-16T01:58:57Z

[excuse spelling errors]

there i layed on the bathroom floor about an hour ago, listening to the the angry conversation that was in the garage beneath the room i was in. i could hear every word that my mom and dad said to one another as my ear pressed against the carpeted floor. i played with my glasses that lay next to my head on the floor as i listened in on the conversation. "why were they always fighting?" i asked myself...well, that was a stupid question. alchohol can influence a lot of things.

"AND WHY WOULD YOU INVITE YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS?" my mom yelled at my dad. this made me angry. my dad tried VERY hard for that birthday party for my mom. my mom barely has any family members on her side and he did invite her close friends. and isn't my dad's side of the family her family too? and she got a sugar free cake with her picture on it and more presents then ever since i can remember. and then i realised it. my mom was a selfish brat. i never looked at it like that before....

i heard my mom yell at my dad for other things as my dad tried to defend himself.

tears now rolled down my face. times like these i wanted a normal family. even though i thought it was always stupid and corny, but i wanted a family that ate together at that point-not in seperate rooms. i wanted a family that sat down and watched movies together, a family that shared an inside joke together-not just two family members or maybe three.

yeah, i do complain about how "stupid" it is to have to eat dinner together and stuff, but times like that, i want it more than anything. i want my mom to not yell at me when i do something wrong, but instead, calmly tell me to do something....

after i decided i heard enough, i got off the floor and wiped the tears off my face and walked down stairs to the garage (the garage is pretty much like a whole nother room with a tv, fridge, carpet, chairs, heater-all of that). i flung the door open to make a dramatic entrance as i stared both of them down with aggrivation. i first glared at my mother for her always trying to start fights and for being a selfish brat and then my dad for not walking away when she tried to start a fight and only adding wood to a fire. they watched me pretend to look for something to drink in the fridge. as i was down there, i had SO many things to say. but i remembered what happened last time i came down inbetween a fight like that-i ended up on the cement ground and i didn't want to bother with that tonight. i could tell that they knew i knew they were yelling by the looks in their eyes as they met mine.

so, without a word, i entered the house with regret of not saying anything.

xsikofacex @ 2006-09-29T21:52:00

2006-09-30T02:25:48Z

i'm in one of those moods right now where i just want to listen to slow songs and just think a little (the smashing pumpkins are perfect for this mood, if i do say so myself). i mean-i'm not depressed...just...i don't know...it's weird. the sight of Fence's best friend at the football game made me miss him SO much, like, i kept saying to katie "i miss fennnnccccccce"

but, anyways. i said i'd upload pictures from when i was at Cristen's and the river and such.

here are the pictures, starring....

the lovely Cristen

the lovely Katie

and me

IN THE ALLEY WAYYYY

Cristen got a bit cut off, i look so...not...sincere.

any chance i get, i'll climb something...actually got my white sweater dirty today because i climbed ontop of some scrap metal...har.

there is actually a groundhog WAY back there in the distance, not sure if you can see it...

IN THE WOOOOOODS

dislike this picture of me, but, see that house thing back there? dates back to the 1800s. pretty cool stuff. about 4 of them in that area.

i was ontop of a cement thing that was once apart of a house i guess (but you can't see it) and Cristen is climbing a tree

good story behind this picture. some guys saw us back in the woods somehow (don't know how, we barely saw them) and they were like "HEY LADIESSSSSSSS, WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" and Cristen-being the lady she is, yells "GO F*CK YOURSELF!". you can tell by her expression (i hope) that she is yelling that and i...look...stunning-no? roflll.

took this picture of Cristen-i think she looks awesome :]

i think this is kind of gay-but, evs.

so, i hopped ontop of something that connected to this house thing and started kicking at this rock to be destructive...and that's Cristen's head back there x3

THE RIVERRRRRRRRRR

me sitting down on a rock and saying something looking very studley and Cristen saying something to me.

some parts of this i like, other parts i hate....

still deciding if i like this or not

me in the front and katie is over where the boats go out

Katie-then my feet in the background if you're wondering

end.

ummm...and here are a couple from wednesday in the cafeteria. Nikita's camera made me looks really pale...

katie and i

katie, me, corey. i look like a loser.

katie likes to lick me-but, i don't dig that.

me and the wonderful nikita who took the pictures at the table...and i look so pale....

I KNOW YOU JUST LOVED EVERY SECOND OF THAT.

xsikofacex @ 2006-09-27T17:42:00

2006-09-27T21:48:25Z

stolen form a friend on myspace (i'm bored and waiting for katie to call me-so, it's survey time)

i'm not gonna check for spelling errors. sorry if i spell everything wrong....as if anyone is gonna read this x]

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
almost-i accidently called 911 and they came to my house.

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
used to. but, now i love roller coasters too much to close my eyes.

3. When's the last time you've been sledding?
long time ago, sadly.

4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
UH-UH....well, just sleeping-like, "catching some Zs"? xD then anyone...well, not ANYONE.

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
hell yeah

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
sure

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
i don't care.

8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
don't care for either

9. Do you stay friends with your exs?
rofl. NO. i've only had one. thanks. and we haven't talked since last year....and we went out in 6th grade...but, yeah.

10. Do you know how to play poker?
no.

11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
yeah.

12. What's your favorite commercial?
i don't like commercials.

13. What are you allergic to?

14. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around do you run red lights?
you'd still get caught by that little camera thing.

15. Have you ever had a choco taco?
no

16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
i don't like either.

7. Have you ever been Ice Skating?
yesssss, i lerves it.

18. How often do you remember your dreams?
i haven't been remembering them lately. i mostly remember them during summer.

19. When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried?
yesterday. "major nipples"

20. Can you name 5 songs by The Beatles?
"helter skelter"
"ask me why"
"let it be"
"blackbird"
"P.S. i love you"

21. What's the one thing on your mind now?
don't worry about it.

22. Do you believe in love at first sight?
"it's just an illusion" har

23. Do you put salt on a turkey dinner?
i hate salt.

24. Do you always wear your seat belt?
probably 99% of the time.

25. what cell service do you use?
x

26. Do you like sushi?
never got to try it

27. Have you ever narrowly avoided a fatal accident?
i avoided falling on my cat, that count?

28. What do you wear to bed?
"none existing shorts" (har tala) and a t-shirt

29. What did the last text message you recieved say?
x

30. Have you ever been on the funny website GoofyAuctions.coM?
no, and i don't want to either.

31. Do you truly hate anyone?
nah.

32. Classic rock or rap?
first one

33.If you could sleep with any famous person in the world who would it be?
IF I COULDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD, IT'D BE-

34. Have you ever went stripping?
come see me tuesdays and thursdays-i'm pretty wild.

35. What food do you find disgusting?
mac&cheese

36. Do you sing in the shower?
sometimes

37. Did you ever play, "I'll show you mine, if you show me yours"?
nah, i don't care about there's enough to show them mine.

38. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
yeah.

39. Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
yeah. this little "goth" girl on my bus. people are always making fun of her and i'm like, "back on up out of her business"

40. Have you ever sang in front of the mirror?
all the time. i do it every day x]

41. What was the last halloween custom you wore?
something stupid

42. Ever got into a fight?
yes

43. Drank so much that your body felt hot?
no

44. What's the craziest thing you've done?
i can't think of one.

45.whats the song that makes you go crazy everytime you hear it? there are so many...

46. Been to a club lately?
never

47. Ever wish to change your name?
nah

48. Got tattoos?
no
49. Last song you heard?
"11:11 p.m." all-american rejects

50. Wished so much it made you cry?
yeah

complete madness

2006-09-24T14:19:25Z

the 22nd was a pretty good day if i do say so myself. i think i just realised that day that i might have a crush on someone i never expected i would ever have one on.....but then, i'm sort of in denial about it >___>

so, went home with Cristen (OR WTF, IS IT CRISTIN. WE ALL AREN'T EVEN SURE) and Katie to Cristen 's pap's house. got out of our green and white clothes (school colours and stuff. i wore my brother's football shirt thinggggg. i lended Katie one too, and Cristen wore her tennis shirt) and into other clothes. her pap ordered pizza. all of us went 3 blocks down an alley to her sister's house to get Cristen's sweatshirt. took some pretty cool pictures on the way there. then, we came back and walked on the sidewalk back to her house instead of the alley way. Cristen and i broke out into the song "lollipop (candyman)" by Aqua. then, we walked past a house where a band was playing in the basement, we yelled, "WOO, ROCK ON!!!" and as we were passing the house, we hear

"KATIE, KATIE FROM MYSPACE KATIE!?" and we all turned around real slow to see this guy coming down the steps of the house from the house with the band in the basement playing. this guy supposively friended katie a while ago on myspace and his name was Steve and he goes to our school...i never seen him before. so, we were all talking for a while, then, he said the band playing downstairs was Captain of Compliments (who played with Anberlin last night at the chameleon club). so, we talked some more, then the lead singer stuck his head out of the basement door (not the front door that steve came out of), stuck it back in, and then a minute later the whole band came out and we all started talking. then there was an awkward silence and i said we had pizza to eat and we left. haha. wow.

thennnnnnnn, we got to her house, ate pizza. went into the woods where these old brick houses were from the 1800s were. there was no roof to them or anything. just walls. it was pretty cool. took a lot of pictures there.

then went back to her house. AND THEN, walked down to the susquehanna river and took more pictures. had a rock throwing contest to see who could lift the biggest rock and throw it the farthest into the river(cause we're immature like that). then we left cause these older dudes came to fish. Katie and Cristine walked underneith the bridge to get to her house, but, i like testing myself and i went up the steep hill with trees and shit, across the 3 train tracks, and went down the hill and met them there. i have a bad habbit of climbing things-seriously. ask cristen and katie....

thennnnnnnn. got ready for the football game. went there. Sharon-cristen's friend, came with us. met up with Mikey and this Lauren girl. Mikey and Lauren left early. Sharon and i walked around together a lot. as we were on the sidelines watching the football game, these guys who looked like seniors in highschool or older, tapped us on the back and asked us how old we were. Sharon said "18" (which she really is) and i blew it by saying i was 15. rofl. they were like "oh, okay" and walked away after i said that. rofl. nice going Aiko....

so, had a good time there, although i was tired then ever from walking for 7 or 8 straight hours (not counting school) and now the muscles in my legs are killing me .___. the only time we stopped was when we sat down for pizza.

sooo, yeah. a good time indeed. pictures later whenever Cristen uploads them.